2009年10月3日 星期六
buhbye
2009年9月27日 星期日
truth
All the truth out today..LOL..glad to be friend with her again..did really disappointed and sad about him..wa lan leh!!!
Well..skip the details..anyway~~friend forever and brother forever okayss??
Exams and 'O' level coming soon!!! good luck to everyone..hahas..
Gonna be single until i'm ready for a new one..=)..will move on so don't worry..
P.S. study important..but health more important..do take care..okayss...
2009年9月23日 星期三
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time to let go..
It's time to let go..it's time to return to her..force myself to smile infront of the person who i love so much..the first time i pretend infront of somebody..it's hurt..really hurt..but what to do..i have to let go one day isn't it..he belongs to her..he's mean for her not for me..
Won't be blog here for sometime..need to study for exams and clear something..hahas..
P.S. don't miss me here..=D
2009年9月21日 星期一
one last time (for my boy)
Boy..few days only..you've already make me forget about him totally..you hold my hands..kiss my lips gentlely..you give your shoulder which i can lying on..
I said,i don't believe in forever..you said,you will prove it..I said,i scare the feeling of leaving..you said,you will never leave me..I asked,do you like me?..you said,you love me..You are so gentle and special,perfect and cute..
Can i believe in forever for the one last time??can you protect my heart..love me and trust me..please don't ever leave me or hate me..Can i have the happiness for the one last time??please let me be myself without pretending infront of you..even if i have to hurt her..i still want to be a little selfish..have you to be my only boy without sharing with others..that's why i'm willing to wait for you to leave her..
Because of you..my selfish mindset is forgiven..my childish acts are protected..those painful heart are heal..i'm a bitch yet you still accept it..You forgive my mistakes,accept my past,heal my painful heart and protecting me..
2009年9月20日 星期日
falling in love with you ONLY!!!!
I need someone who can love me back when i love him..
I want someone who can trust me in a relationship..
I want someone who cam protect me-i'm not that strong as i show to everyone..
I want someone who can lend me the shoulder whenever i need-i'm tired of crying alone..
I need a hand which can clear away my tear-i have much tears to drop
I need someone who can be there for me always-i will be here for him too..
Everything seem to be so difficult to fulfil,everything just going to the wrong way..=(
I've found the person who can love me back when i love him..
I've found the person who can trust me in a relationhsip..
I've found the person who can protect me ..
I've found the person who can lend me the shoulder whenever i need..
I've found the person who can clear away my tears and my fears..
I've found the person who can be there for me always..
Everything seem to be so easy to fulfil..everything just going to the smooth way..=D
I spent a long long time to forget about the bastard,yet it doesn't work..i don't believe in those words like "forever" or "last long"..however..within three days..he made my mind only think of him at all time..and i decided to believe in those words one last time yesterday..i hope i made a right choice this time..i hope i won't get hurt again..i hope this relationship can be really forever last long..because it is not a PUPPY LOVE!!..it actually took me a long time to bring myself to talk to him and all these things..
I want to treasure him..i'm willing to wait..i don't want to hurt him..i love him really much..even if we have to hurt someone else soon..
God..
please allow me to remain coma if all these things are dream..if i have to lost him one day..please wake me up before i lost him..
please allow me to have a long life time if all these things are reality..if i have to lost him one day..please make me sleep and remain coma before i lost him..
He's not the first person i seriously in love with..but he change me alot..he's too speical compare to other guys..i love him so much..
He's the first person who hold my hand after the bastard..he's the first person who kiss me made me happy after the bastard..he made me believe in those words again..he made me live in "sweet dream land"..
P.S. If i have a wish..i will wish that i could be with him forever last long..if i have two wishes..i will wish that i could hold his hand and kiss his lips forever..if i have three wishes..i will wish that i could have him,love him and miss him for the rest of my life..
2009年9月18日 星期五
fall for someone..
Today..i broke up with my boyfriend..he was angry at me for telling the class about our relationship..before i told the class..he was angry because some friends were talking about me and Clement..i wanted to make him happy therefore i told the class about the relationship yesterday..and he angry because of this..WTH????!!!!
Today..i treat my friends drinks during recess..because yesterday was my birthday..muahahh..
Ok..let's back to the topic..i fall for someone..someone who has already have a girlfriend..so i chose to asked him to be my brother instead..at least i could have reason to be close to him and care for him anytime..
I hope he would never know how much i feel about him..at least his girlfriend is better than me..in everyway..prettier than me funnier than me and nicer than me..=)
P.S. God..even thought i'm not ready for a new relationship yet..but please allow me to love the person secretly..=)